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hi

well ....

i miss my sister so0o much! i cried last night becuz i talked to on the phone, she told me that she has to drive all the way to cali by herself! and she wont let my mom fly up there and drive with her! im so worried about her!

and i hate her fucking stupid ass dad! he thinks that he just walk back into her life like no time has past! thats bull shit! he decides that when shes almost 19 and grown up that he can just show up!!! i wish he would just drop dead!    

and school fuckin sucks right now...

i cant wait till this summer....or when i can drive atleast! i want to get the hell out of this place! Every one sucks....nobody understands me...NOBODY gets it!  All anyone cares about is them selves....

i have nowhere to turn, nobody to turn to....

all i want is a real friend....

i never show what im feeling , so no one knows....but you

i just want to break down, and get it all out.

                                                                         yours truly,

                                                                              sam

[	mood	|	sick	]
[	music	|	nada	]

hey there everyone....

ide thought you might like an update from me, myself.....

well, hmmm....

i stayed home from school today, im sick as a MO-Fo....

but anyways....

theres so much i want to say, but i just cant put it into words....

very sorry-

                        p.s. "Keep it sweet".....

                                                 -SAM

[	mood	|	okay	]
[	music	|	wheatus---teenage dirt bag	]

just got home from school....yea...today was CRAZY!

heres what went down----

1st:

talked to my friend Apples...hes the best.....

were prolly cousins....haha....yea i know....

2nd:

holy shit!!!

im almost got in a fight with sum chick named Jami Croom....but  i could tell she was scared! whoop whoop!

she was like " Nate, your a poser!"...and i said "Shut up! hes no poser! so leave him alone!"....and she said sumthin , but i didn't hear....and i was like "You better quit runnin' your mouth!"....and she said "Oh sam! cumon! i was just joking!' haha"......

god i hate her!

3rd:

haha! we had sum Sub that was from England!

Adam got in trouble...and she asked for his name and he wouldn't tell her....so she went to go get the teacher next door, and we were like "RUN! GO GO GO!!"....lol, and he halled ass out the door....lol....that was the best!

and i think logan is starting to like me......umm...yea...., i wish he wasn't!

4th:

oh man! sum black guy came up to me and courtney and was like" are u guys virgins?" and "Ever been with a black guy?".....and i was like "Heck no! u must be crazy!".....and my friend chris was gettin mad b.c. he was talkin to us like that, so he told us to go under the bleechers....the next thing i knew...i heard a loud BOOM!

and then i heard chris yellin at him.....it was so0o funny! but chris got in trouble....

i felt really loved....!

                               anyway! i still like Kyle alot....i dont know why it so hard to get over him....

                              i wish i hadn't screwed things up!....i miss him....:'(

                                                                                           -sam

[	mood	|	bored	]
[	music	|	nada	]

im so0o bored!

jee wizz....

today sucked....

im gonna go...

     later-

              sam

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	nada	]

Instructions....

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.

2. Bold the things that are true about you.

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin at the moment.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton

15. I curse frequently

16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I have tons of peircings or tattoos
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart.

21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now.

27. I love Sushi

28. I talk really, really fast sometimes
29. I have fresh breath in the morning

30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes

39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months

40. I know how to cornrow hair
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have

48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex

51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I can deep throat
55. I have had sex in public
56. I would classfy myself as ghetto
57. I'm obsessed with my Livejournal
58. I don't hate anyone. I hate alot of people.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God

64. I watch MTV on a daily basis

65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love dramatic arts
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a love interest/crush
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes

81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment

that was pretty gay....but w/e....im bored....sorry jenn....lol

[	mood	|	nerdy	]
[	music	|	rooney_popstar	]

man, i have had like the best week ever...besides a few things....

well heres what happen yesterday....

1st:

i slepted for like 30 min...then i got called down to the office...talked to my guidence officer....he said that i need to take "night classes" to pass the 9th grade...im kinda happy about all that, i think its gonna be fun...but thats just me

2nd:

we got to pick what seat we wanted to sit in for the rest of the year, i chose to sit next to courtney and Dilley...(my teacher was really "up beat" , i think she got laid or sumthin...)...we got to pick parts to play in Romeo and Juliet, i chose to be "Gregory" , "Paris", and "Chorous"...i think i play all guy parts...lol....

and right before 3rd i saw jeenah, she came to "withdraw"...i almost cryed....

3rd:

did this stupid "fun" paper thingy....we got to be in our own group....me, Dilley, amber, jessica L., Zach, and jess came in the class and hepled us cheat on it....lol

Lunch:

got in line with Dilley....and we messed around with matty...hes soo gay...

4th:

hung out with Robert, Chewy, Brigham, Tyler, Adam, jacob, Dilley, Courtney, Brooke, and Casey...

we found a cookie on the basketball net thing..we started hitting people with it...and this black guy was trying to hide from the teacher by hanging on the back of the net....it was soo funny...tyler found me a pack of "kool" cigarettes...i gave to to the guys b.c i think  those are gross..

me and courtney got locked outside....then we got in a water fight....nasty!

me, Dilley, Kat, Courtney, Chewy, Robert,and Brigham were playing volleyball in the lobby...brigham knocked one of the ceiling tiles out...lol

and sum black lesbian chick asked me what my name was...eww sick

after school:

i went to kaylas and watched napoleon dynamite....(called gizmo)lol

came home....and hung out with momma

mom and greg got in a fight....whats new?....i hate it...too much yelling....

but it was funny b.c my step dad was drunk....i was laughing the whole time....my mom was trying not to laugh....

                         well thats all.....

                                                  much love-

                                                                       sam

[	mood	|	crappy	]
[	music	|	brand new	]

god ! today was bad and good at the same time!

ok...here we go!

1st period: 

i slept the entire period cuz i found out i failed and have to get switched out....wuts the point of doing work?!?!

2nd period:

me and Dilly tryed to hit the teacher with peanuts...and read sum of Romeo and Juliet....

3rd period:

looked and pics of amber being a model....she is soo0o freikin' pretty!....and when jess came in, we pretended to get in a fight...and she had me call brigham....hes a fag....

lunch:

me and Dilly hit jason up for sum cash....we are sum broke hoes....

4th period:

me and jess went into the boys bathroom with Eric, Adam, and Robert to smoke one...that was really fun....

ate peanuts with william, Dilly, Jess, Chris, Courtney, and Kat in the lobby....tryed to break into the "mirror room" to see all the football players....

walked with all the sweaty guys while they were walking to the showers.....

            when i got home, my mom had got me Napoleon Dynamite!  that was the best part of the whole day.....

i didn't get to see Gizmo....that sucked most of all.....:'(

                                                         im out-

                                                                      sam

[	mood	|	relieved	]
[	music	|	story of the year-until the day i die	]

yea...i thought u could use a journal...it was just a little charity since ur so0o poor....

yea...me and gizmo finally talked to one-another...

SORRY THAD!

                   peace-

                                  sam

how dumb must you be?!?

thad....im sorry....but i dont like u......if i wasn't "talking" to sum1 ....i maybe could have liked u....im sorry

this is all just happening way too fast for me...i dont know why u say u "love" me....you only met me once...i know im like totally sexy...but u know...thats really strange....

we can still be friends....

i like "u know who" way to much.....

he is the only one im concentrating on...

                                   im so sorry,

                                                      sam

i still "love" ya (dont take it the wrong way)

heck yes i did!